Today, May 18, 2015. It has been 5 days since you left the planet and nothing is the same. Tomorrow, a week ago, I spoke with you on the phone and you had to cut it short, saying you would talk to me later, had some business to do in town. That was the last time I spoke with you. If I knew that would be the last conversation, what would I have said differently? What would we have spoken about? The trivial day to day stuff as always? I am sickened by your leaving. I can not look at anything the same. You were my best friend despite our past, we worked through it all.. spoke volumes on how strong our relationship, our bond was. I can not see past my pain, this heartache. I can not see past all that you have lost, your whole future, all your dreams and plans.
I know of Buddhist teachings, that by the 49th say you will have passed through the 3 phases or stages.. and you will either be reborn or have reached Nirvana.
I just want to see you again, hear your voice, hear your laugh..one more time. I need to know that you are alright, somehow.
I dont want to be here alone. Please... dont leave me alone. We were back on track finally, had forgiven you for all of the past.. You were a new man.Why now?
You will always be in my thoughts no matter where I go
May 13, 2015 for Adam
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