May 13, 2016
A year has passed since you left. They keep telling me that as time passes it gets easier.
Fools!
Liars!
It has only becomes harder as the realization sets in that you are not coming back.
I try to look towards my beliefs in Buddhism to get me through
but my pain forces me to from it.. and I know this shows how weak I am.
I wanted to not be alone this week,
to have comfort in words of not in the arms of the person I have given my heart to
but I realize now I am not even worthy of that.
Words fail.. I am alone.
My tears break everything inside of me and nothing can comfort me now..
No one will ever understand me as you did. I wanted him to... so desperately, especially now.
Words fail.
